Cycling to Paris

i love Such Great Heights by Iron & Wine. the quality of the recording is shite, but that adds to the song.

it has been a busy and stressful few weeks recently. and it's not going to stop until a long time into the future.

today i found the song off skins by crystal castles - alice practice. it's immense. a bit screwy, but still - what a tune.

i'm feeling a bit lost at the moment in terms of what to write now. i'll just post another one of anya and mine's conversations cause we had another interesting one earlier:

Anyarr says:
owww jesus head banging and flailing has never looked so attractive D:
Anyarr says:
I DESPISEEE HIM
Anyarr says:
jossjossjossjossjossss
siôn says:
do you still like him?
Anyarr says:
noo well idk i never stopped, then i completely forgot about him kinda... but then when i see his videos i still go all weird but i spose that can only be expected because i liked him so much
Anyarr says:
he's a cock though
siôn says:
see, this is what i think is so rubbish about relationships at our age
siôn says:
and i don't mean this in a cruel way
siôn says:
but you see people who are constantly professing their love for each other, and then after they've broken up, it's like that never happened
siôn says:
and that could be narrow minded from my point of view because unlike you and many people, i've never been in a relationship so i don't know what emotions are like there
siôn says:
but from the outside, it looks like it's not worth it
siôn says:
but then again, sometimes you just wish that you had someone
siôn says:
sorry, that was a bit of a downer
siôn says:

Anyarr says:
yeah, i really did LOVE steve and it was the most amazing feeling evereverever, and i had to force myself to hate his guts when we broke up or i'd be sad for pretty much ever i think it might be like that for alot of people
Anyarr says:
it kind of isnt worth it really
siôn says:
yeah, but surely it is when you're there
siôn says:
like in the moment
Anyarr says:
it hurts sooooooooooo much but then yeah at the time its the most amazing thing
Anyarr says:
i just wish you knew when its going to last
Anyarr says:
because i tend to throw myself in the deep end
siôn says:
maybe not for the whole time, but for those periods when you two are together i can only imagine that it would amazing
siôn says:
which sounds cliche and cheesy
Anyarr says:
love IS cliche and cheesy
siôn says:
why, do you over commit yourself or something?
Anyarr says:
i think so yeah =/ but when the guy is doing the same it feels right haha
Anyarr says:
i definately commited too much with stevo,so this time i'mholding myself back a bit
Anyarr says:
so joss loves me more than i love him which is good
Anyarr says:
it'll balance out when im ready
siôn says:
but surely with joss atm it's a case of you love him more than he knows
siôn says:
whether that's more than he loves you, i don't know
siôn says:
but the fact you're holding back doesn't mean that the love or feelings you have for him are reduced?
Anyarr says:
yeah actually... i think i love him more than i know too, i try not to think about it too much because im terrified of being hurt again cause it sucked somuch
siôn says:
this is where i get lost lol cause i don't understand how you can love someone too much
siôn says:
not in like an arrogant way, but i don't get it
Anyarr says:
when you find someone that thinks the same way as you do and wants the same things you do, and just sees things in the same way then yeah.. its really hard not to love them more than you thought you could ever love anybody
Anyarr says:
it sounds so funny haha
siôn says:
but doesn't that go against "opposites attract"?
Anyarr says:
yeah but its deeper than that
siôn says:
cause by going for someone who likes the same things as you, wants the same things as you and sees things in the same way, aren't you just going for someone who is almost a copy of you?
Anyarr says:
no because im not talking hobbies and shit, i mean like ~soul mate~ kind of things but not quite
siôn says:
if i wanted to be a psychologist i could say something like "by going for someone like that, where you only see the surface, what you can see is so similair to what you like about yourself that that's what you want because by only being on the surface that is similair to you, you escape the emotional problems that lie deep within"
siôn says:
yeah, but again, if someone is so similair to you, then why would you want that? i'm not saying it's wrong, but surely you'd want something a bit different - although i guess it would heavily depend on what type of person you are
Anyarr says:
well... ok for example: me and joss are polar opposites to a certain degree, he's not creative, he loves cooking and sports and he's so normal and just lovely and funny, but then theres so much more too him and theres so much more to me than most people will ever see, so when someone is able to see that because they're on the same wave length as you, then it makes you absolutely adore every bone i
Anyarr says:
n their body
siôn says:
see, that puts things in a completely different picture
siôn says:
because before you were saying how there was so much that is similair about you two, and now you've said that there are things which are very different about you two
siôn says:
which could mean that you will have an interesting relationship
siôn says:
i like conversations like these
Anyarr says:
so do i typing things out from in my head makes them make more sense

chelseafan26 @ 22:14
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